Until now.
I always thought about it.
But I don't think I ever wrote it down.
On a paper somewhere or on something.
I have always had this thought, trying to make me feel its presence.
Death..
I always wanted a sudden and natural death.
Something so sudden that you wouldn't even get a second to think of the pain, and you die.
But I also thought even for that very second, you would realize the pain, and you would know that you're in pain.
The pain that you never felt before and would be so intense to take you forever...
But now. I realized.
People have the same emotions.
Everyone in this world has experienced the death of a loved one in their lifetime.
But I didn't know. Someone could have the same emotions.
The same emotions.
When I read the very first paragraph.
It was all my thoughts and my perspective towards death for these many years.
Everyone can experience pain.
Everyone shall suffer the pain.
But I never knew the extent of pain would sometimes match.
I read some writers' writings, and even if the writer of those lines experienced it or wrote without even experiencing it, I felt the question, How could he even write my feelings?
Exactly what I felt? It was as if I was the one who told him how it felt or if I was the one who wrote it.
But then.
Pain is pain.
Death is death.
Whether it comes to you.
Or you go to it.
Both ways.
You're gone. Forever.
With some pain before you go.
And with incalculable pain that you would leave for others.
Either way. It's pain. Suffering..!!
And you have to live with it..!!!